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To Every Girl who Doubts Herself

Pain inflicted on yourself.
Every day a little deeper the wound.
Why do you insist on ruining your own happiness?
Don't you think you deserve a moment of peace amongst the chaos you cause yourself daily?
What will it take for you to see that you are your own captor?
You hold the keys to your shackles but still you refuse to remove them from your pocket.
Release…
Exhale all you've been holding on to.
Give yourself a chance to understand what it means to be free.
Each minute that ticks on the clock you give yourself a new disappointment, but the sound of your breath can stop time.
You are worth more than your despair!
The power within you is golden!
An undiscovered treasure buried deep only looking to be found & adored!

Love Jones

I was in love with you once but you disappointed me.

This is not the first time nor will it be the last time I am to be disappointed by a man.

Let’s say it all started with my dad. The one I never really had.

Here is where you try to label me and tell me I have issues. That what I didn’t get from my dad I tried to find in you.

In some instances that may be true but all I ever wanted from you was you.

But how can you give me someone you don’t even know. How could I expect you to show me something you’ve never been shown.

You don’t know how to love a women like me because you’ve never met one. Every one needs practice so I guess God made me that one.

The girl that got away.

Even if you don’t know it or you do and just don’t show it, it doesn’t make it any less true.

Time was not on our side and so I slipped away from you.

It doesn’t hurt now because you don’t believe in that kind of thing. You tell yourself if I was truly such a special girl you would have been glad to bend that knee and present me with a ring.

That’s okay too, that doesn’t take away from me it only hides the truth from you.

Sometimes in our lives we meet people and for a moment they mean so much to us. Then times goes by and people we think we can trust confuse us.

They warp our good intentions with their influence and they hide their envy with what seems like sound advise.

They tell us we don’t need each other and we believe them and inevitably we appease them.

I tell myself you hurt me on purpose and that makes you the bad guy which makes it easier to dry the tears in my eyes. Although in the back of my mind I know you’re not a hateful person, but isn’t this how we women learn our lessons?

You throw yourself into everything else. Filling your time with work and drinks and girls you pick  randomly as if off a shelf. Although in the back of your mind that isn’t really how you’d like to spend all your time, But isn’t this how men keep from stressing?

Honestly, I think none of us know anything. We’re all just guessing.

-TiaJayy

01.10.2017

 

 

She Listens

You know I’m not a person who says much about what I’m going through.It’s always easier to write things down than to try and say them out loud.

Someday though I hope my writing will transform to give a voice to others like me who get lost in the sound.

To finally show the world that just because a Queen doesn’t speak doesn’t mean she doesn’t have a crown. 

There are plenty who look down and undervalue the beauty in her silence.

They’ll say, 

“If she can’t speak up why should I give her any affections?”

“All the Queens in this kingdom scream out to command attention.”

So in this respect the same thing that makes her beautiful has now made this queen invisible. 

But she’ll be seen again when all the noise goes quiet. 

Because people long for peace and that’s hard to find unless the distractions become silent. 

So when all is calm and they see her standing there in all her soundless beauty, they’ll finally understand what makes her special.

She listens. 

-TiaJayy

Lost & Found

I knew a young woman beautiful in many ways, from her soul to her spirit, and her smile that could take the gloom out of anyone’s day. She was strong  in her own right but there was a weakness there. Always searching for something that was never there. Looking in all the wrong places for all the right reasons, ignoring timing and seasons, lessons and reason. She wandered away from all that she knew. Searching and searching without any clues. As her search progressed her smiled shined less and her soul grew weary while her spirit longed for rest. Why would such a beautiful woman put herself through such stress? I think it was because although hope was lost she hoped none the less. As her belief in this seemingly intangible thing and almost impossible goal grew more and more crippling, I watched as she suffered longing to bring her some relief. Even though I longed to help her what I could offer was beyond her understanding. You see when a woman is lost and searching for something her mind is held captive by its own passion and blinded by it’s unyielding desire. Her true consciousness is just out of reach and so to speak to her with logic only confuses her more. Oh but when she’s good and tired and her subconscious breaks through she is reminded of all the things she once knew. Her memories serve as bread crumbs guiding her back to her true self. She is reminded of her once bright smile and how her soul used to soar infinitely higher. This beautiful young woman finds the beauty in herself and puts her search to rest. There is a new journey now one far more rewarding than the previous yet much more fatiguing because growing for greatness is perilous thing. It takes a brave woman to relinquish her power but an even braver one to find it. You see a promise of growth means sometimes having to acknowledge your own defeat. It means that there will come a time where you have to admit although someone has hurt you it was you who allowed it. Growth is required, you can’t go higher without the knowledge acquired through pain, trials and tribulations, and their ever present stain. If we never know suffering we can never appreciate peace. If we never know sorrow how can we embrace joy. Even though all this is true there comes a time where you must stop putting yourself through. Don’t allow what can be prevented. Stand firm in who you are, keep your feet cemented. Remind yourself daily you hold the power of whether you spend your next hours pushing yourself further or crying in the shower. No one can take from you what you don’t offer up. Keep your head high and remember your triumphs! Growing for Greatness is her new quest and it will not be easy but she will not rest. Higher and higher she aims to soar this beautiful young woman is found once more.

Selfless Woman; Selfish Man

I wish for one day a selfish man could walk in the shoes of a selfless woman.

I wish for one moment he could understand what that really means.

I wish for just a day he could feel her heartache, that he could know that every time he gives her a hollow hug, a sympathetic I love you, or a meaningless kiss that he is taking something from her.

Something that she can and will overcome but none the less will never get back.

I want him to see what it’s like to lose something that was already too precious to give but was given none the less.

The selfish man can NEVER understand what it’s like to live in a society that tells you if you want to be “loved”, if you want to be married, if you want to have a relationship there are some things you just have to accept.

The world says to her, “Selfless Woman, you will ALWAYS be second to  someone and even if you’re lucky enough to be number one there will ALWAYS be a number two. Selfless Woman  you are expected to continue to give your heart freely no matter how many times its broken. Selfless Woman raising your standards and having an expectation of reciprocation is just another way to be bitter.  Selfless Woman you are weak! Selfless Woman you get what you’re given take it or leave it! Selfless Woman just settle or be alone.”

A selfish man is denied one thing and he crumbles. He will leave a selfless woman at just the thought of her taking on any of his selfish ways. Yet she is expected to carry her many burdens and keep pushing and so she does.

All the while she continues to be unappreciated, manipulated, and misused.

Selfless Woman I only know of ONE selfless man! His name is Christ and he was the ONLY perfect man. He is the ONLY one who can teach a selfish man to become a selfless one. So selfless woman stop breaking your back and give him your hand!

 

“For Anyone Who’s ever Wronged Me”

Thank you for reminding me of everything I never wanted to be.

Thank you for showing me I still need room to breathe.

Thank you for falling short of all I ever dreamed.

Otherwise I would still be sinking in my own puddle of complacency.

I was lost for a moment inside myself not realizing I wasn’t myself, revisiting situations I believed I had placed on a shelf.

Time has a way of repeating itself without  us even seeing that small hand swing back for that second go round.

Now that I’m reminded of all I despise it’s time to make a change in order to avoid what would have been an inevitable demise.

The way is clearer now, but the road is just as curvy as it ever was.

It’s all in perspective now, everything that is to be done.

I have to surrender totally to him that was, and is, and is to come!

It must be a complete yes, a choice not made do to circumstance, but of a sound mind, a conscious choice to change my stance.

The time is now to be bold and fearless, not to be weak and continue settling for less.

I have a responsibility to give the Lord My best.

He didn’t just die at the cross, he arose from the dead!

Life is such a precious thing to waste, he gave his for mine and I won’t let it be in vain!